Time : Twilight
Location: AoL Local base;
Niranjan Meditation Hall;
Vizag;India
Everyone cherishes The First Time Experiences...First school...Ragging stuff ...college..bike...gifts...gf/bf etc etc ...Same with me ...My 1st Sudrashan Kriya Experience was amazing and mystical. . I will not bore u by explaining you the History, Technicalities and what is Sudarshan Kriya .Google can be more of the help for such tasks.
Statutory Warning:
""Iam a staunch believer of Individual freedom as I believe that every human being is &should be absolutely n unconditionally free .,hence this blog is not meant to influence or inspire or impose my will on reader nor start some intellectual argument. This blog might appear too fantastic or tale of fantasy but i leave it to your better judgment,. am not kinda person to be drawn into any kind of debate....””
..
Though iam Agnostic kinda chap .Iam child like hyper curious with deep interest in anything mysterious and Para normal. Yoga and all its all affiliated studies came naturally to me..After all,spirituality runs in my blood with my grandpa and mom deeply devoted . Yet iam agnostic atheist radicalized iconoclast depending on mood n time’s n my convenience,
In vizag i joined Aol (Art of Living by Shri Shri Ravi Shankar)Classes despite of my boss sniggering. First day going to Meditation Hall in unknown city was quite frustrating. Auto walla made me “Donkey of the Day “ by taking 50 rupees for the distance less than 1-2 kms.But he showed his skill by driving same 2 kms in zig zag lanes n creating an illusion of 10-20kms. Different people came to class for different purposes. Some for health purposes and some old people for killing time and myself for exploring myself and the world atlarge.As I always say …
For me world is nothing but a big game to be played for fun.
Sudarshan Kriya is rhythmic breathing .It goes on for 20-30 minutes probably as i never kept track of time. Initially breath pattern went normally from nostril to lungs but as things get settled and we progress.. it goes deeper ..As the breath falls into a pattern .,one can feel it shooting from depths of belly to depths of cranium. Infact first feeling that I felt as if centre of skull around fontelle area was flaring n opening up just like some rocket trying to launch itself from underground silos.
Being sensitive I could feel the different changes occurring deep inside me. These changes happened gradually & slowly. More deeper i began to breathe., More awareness started flooding. Slowly as if in stages I started to loose connection with outer world. Fan noise, surroundings and my own rumbling thoughts subsided slowly.
. I felt as if I stepped into big cave of darkness. All within me ...Miles and Miles as far I can see ., its only darkness ..Pitch black was the scenario. Neither Beginning nor End .Only screaming sound was sound of Silence.Gravity was zero and all Laws of Physics were gone for a toss
The real effects lies after the breathing exercise when we were asked to relax keeping our awareness intact.
I recorded all the mystical yet subtle changes deep inside me as long as memory was alive within me. The blackness was experience to behold. For once my physical gross body dissolved leaving no connection between physical body n me.
Bones melted into darkness
Imagine if u lost ur back bone and all your bones suddenly melted . I felt as if iam just a boneless shapeless jellylike amoeba.No shape. No size. No nothing except miles n miles perennial darkness in all 360 degrees with no beginning n end. With no Ceiling nor floor. I felt that with every passing breath I was going deeper into vortex of
Pitch-black darkness
I welcomed the feeling of going deeper. My Curiosity was more than my Fear. Soon I crossed one stage and entered into another dimension. It wasn’t just darkness that enveloped me..But to my horror., the startling feeling was such that I became part of mysterious blackness. Even the feeling of being alive was lost. I was part of black.now this feeling is something that i cannot exactly describe so i leave it to readers sense of imagination.
I am there yet not there ..i am alive yet not alive. For a moment I became part of the infinity .With no physical body and mental circuitry gone haywire. I became NOTHING ...frankly my vocabulary skills fail to record that electrifying experience...
i have been sucked into vortex of nothing ness not long before i became nothing myself. The word NOTHING is understatement.My greatest strenghth and real sustainer of Life "The Ego" vanished with no trace. The word "I" became extinct. I Praveen Sagar ..Civil engg ..Comic obsessed .Dosa lover. Nature enthusiast. brother-friend Relations-power , anger-ego-love , all emotions,prestige, ideology, beliefs , senses, options. good bad ugly ..Sweet sour, tangy. Everything melted into oblivion. All remained was Very Deep Sense of Nothing.
All emotions zapped out. All connections with world severed in this state .Being enveloped by darkness isn’t that frightful as i believed in myself.
I don’t know how long i was in this state of limbo as Concept of Time & Space had no validity in this Dimension
Slowly i felt coming out .step by step.Feeling i\f being alive in human sense has returned....physical senses started functioning ....tingling electric impulses spread all
Over flesh & every part had sense of tingling vibration
Finally my memory was back. I don’t know if I was awakened or i woke up on my own...My eyes were moist and tightly shut by eye lids naturally with no force or exertion. My eyes refused to open. They choose to remain shut. Though my sense of touch was back .Its still hazy but i distinctly remember leaving my palms open to sky now i find them curled to form what i learnt later as Adi mudra .
My eyes were cold .Body motionless. Mind calm. Breathe almost nil. Still i didn’t feel like opening my eyes ..They were ice cold stone like tightly shut. I was in state of motionless before body felt like becoming hard crust .one half was flesh and another half becoming like hard crust ala cyborg From half stone state my body started expanding in all its direction as if someone is pumping air into my body which has no exit. Now my brain worked furiously all the way to combat this .I tried to access my memory where I could draw every diplomatic-Martial art Combat skill I learnt. But no avail
...even before i cud wonder what’s happening..Fatness is replaced by Height. I appeared to stretch lengthier n lengthier....The distance between my palms on thighs and my head was more than a skyscraper or so i felt....region around centre of my skull began to glow warm. It was if something was trying to open up in fontenelle region of my skull....and what more.a something like flower began to bloom in my stomach around navel region...something moving n alive n bouncing (i hoped it was no tumor)...
Now fear got best of me. I no longer wanna explore or experience anything. With effort I forced my eyes to blow the eyelids open.
Eeeks ..iam still here ...same place ...same body ...still lean n same height...hmm. still that region around bellybutton was bubbling… though slightly… as if underwater volcano was subsiding...
Now all my physical n mental faculties came back ..Again my brain started its usual work ..thinking million things ..Planning tomorrow schedule. .strategizing how to grab my share of 1.5trillion US dollars that move around world electronically....Tons of.New books to be bought n read .....Even my ego retuned ...I know I have many New peaks to conquer...More Strength to be gained… More Power to be aimed...
Ok ok Dear Reader I hope I haven’t Psyched u with my Surreal Computer Graphics Enabled Land of Dreams n fantasy of Inception movie Dream. I m back to Planet Earth long back ..N hope u wud come back as well. I bow to ur patience n interest u rendered in reading this mammoth article…Honk ..honk..Life is Calling and Life is Rocking..Time to Conquer the Day
Keep Smiling and Keep Shining
Sagar ….till we meet again
Location: AoL Local base;
Niranjan Meditation Hall;
Vizag;India
Everyone cherishes The First Time Experiences...First school...Ragging stuff ...college..bike...gifts...gf/bf etc etc ...Same with me ...My 1st Sudrashan Kriya Experience was amazing and mystical. . I will not bore u by explaining you the History, Technicalities and what is Sudarshan Kriya .Google can be more of the help for such tasks.
Statutory Warning:
""Iam a staunch believer of Individual freedom as I believe that every human being is &should be absolutely n unconditionally free .,hence this blog is not meant to influence or inspire or impose my will on reader nor start some intellectual argument. This blog might appear too fantastic or tale of fantasy but i leave it to your better judgment,. am not kinda person to be drawn into any kind of debate....””
..
Though iam Agnostic kinda chap .Iam child like hyper curious with deep interest in anything mysterious and Para normal. Yoga and all its all affiliated studies came naturally to me..After all,spirituality runs in my blood with my grandpa and mom deeply devoted . Yet iam agnostic atheist radicalized iconoclast depending on mood n time’s n my convenience,
In vizag i joined Aol (Art of Living by Shri Shri Ravi Shankar)Classes despite of my boss sniggering. First day going to Meditation Hall in unknown city was quite frustrating. Auto walla made me “Donkey of the Day “ by taking 50 rupees for the distance less than 1-2 kms.But he showed his skill by driving same 2 kms in zig zag lanes n creating an illusion of 10-20kms. Different people came to class for different purposes. Some for health purposes and some old people for killing time and myself for exploring myself and the world atlarge.As I always say …
For me world is nothing but a big game to be played for fun.
Sudarshan Kriya is rhythmic breathing .It goes on for 20-30 minutes probably as i never kept track of time. Initially breath pattern went normally from nostril to lungs but as things get settled and we progress.. it goes deeper ..As the breath falls into a pattern .,one can feel it shooting from depths of belly to depths of cranium. Infact first feeling that I felt as if centre of skull around fontelle area was flaring n opening up just like some rocket trying to launch itself from underground silos.
Being sensitive I could feel the different changes occurring deep inside me. These changes happened gradually & slowly. More deeper i began to breathe., More awareness started flooding. Slowly as if in stages I started to loose connection with outer world. Fan noise, surroundings and my own rumbling thoughts subsided slowly.
. I felt as if I stepped into big cave of darkness. All within me ...Miles and Miles as far I can see ., its only darkness ..Pitch black was the scenario. Neither Beginning nor End .Only screaming sound was sound of Silence.Gravity was zero and all Laws of Physics were gone for a toss
The real effects lies after the breathing exercise when we were asked to relax keeping our awareness intact.
I recorded all the mystical yet subtle changes deep inside me as long as memory was alive within me. The blackness was experience to behold. For once my physical gross body dissolved leaving no connection between physical body n me.
Bones melted into darkness
Imagine if u lost ur back bone and all your bones suddenly melted . I felt as if iam just a boneless shapeless jellylike amoeba.No shape. No size. No nothing except miles n miles perennial darkness in all 360 degrees with no beginning n end. With no Ceiling nor floor. I felt that with every passing breath I was going deeper into vortex of
Pitch-black darkness
I welcomed the feeling of going deeper. My Curiosity was more than my Fear. Soon I crossed one stage and entered into another dimension. It wasn’t just darkness that enveloped me..But to my horror., the startling feeling was such that I became part of mysterious blackness. Even the feeling of being alive was lost. I was part of black.now this feeling is something that i cannot exactly describe so i leave it to readers sense of imagination.
I am there yet not there ..i am alive yet not alive. For a moment I became part of the infinity .With no physical body and mental circuitry gone haywire. I became NOTHING ...frankly my vocabulary skills fail to record that electrifying experience...
i have been sucked into vortex of nothing ness not long before i became nothing myself. The word NOTHING is understatement.My greatest strenghth and real sustainer of Life "The Ego" vanished with no trace. The word "I" became extinct. I Praveen Sagar ..Civil engg ..Comic obsessed .Dosa lover. Nature enthusiast. brother-friend Relations-power , anger-ego-love , all emotions,prestige, ideology, beliefs , senses, options. good bad ugly ..Sweet sour, tangy. Everything melted into oblivion. All remained was Very Deep Sense of Nothing.
All emotions zapped out. All connections with world severed in this state .Being enveloped by darkness isn’t that frightful as i believed in myself.
I don’t know how long i was in this state of limbo as Concept of Time & Space had no validity in this Dimension
Slowly i felt coming out .step by step.Feeling i\f being alive in human sense has returned....physical senses started functioning ....tingling electric impulses spread all
Over flesh & every part had sense of tingling vibration
Finally my memory was back. I don’t know if I was awakened or i woke up on my own...My eyes were moist and tightly shut by eye lids naturally with no force or exertion. My eyes refused to open. They choose to remain shut. Though my sense of touch was back .Its still hazy but i distinctly remember leaving my palms open to sky now i find them curled to form what i learnt later as Adi mudra .
My eyes were cold .Body motionless. Mind calm. Breathe almost nil. Still i didn’t feel like opening my eyes ..They were ice cold stone like tightly shut. I was in state of motionless before body felt like becoming hard crust .one half was flesh and another half becoming like hard crust ala cyborg From half stone state my body started expanding in all its direction as if someone is pumping air into my body which has no exit. Now my brain worked furiously all the way to combat this .I tried to access my memory where I could draw every diplomatic-Martial art Combat skill I learnt. But no avail
...even before i cud wonder what’s happening..Fatness is replaced by Height. I appeared to stretch lengthier n lengthier....The distance between my palms on thighs and my head was more than a skyscraper or so i felt....region around centre of my skull began to glow warm. It was if something was trying to open up in fontenelle region of my skull....and what more.a something like flower began to bloom in my stomach around navel region...something moving n alive n bouncing (i hoped it was no tumor)...
Now fear got best of me. I no longer wanna explore or experience anything. With effort I forced my eyes to blow the eyelids open.
Eeeks ..iam still here ...same place ...same body ...still lean n same height...hmm. still that region around bellybutton was bubbling… though slightly… as if underwater volcano was subsiding...
Now all my physical n mental faculties came back ..Again my brain started its usual work ..thinking million things ..Planning tomorrow schedule. .strategizing how to grab my share of 1.5trillion US dollars that move around world electronically....Tons of.New books to be bought n read .....Even my ego retuned ...I know I have many New peaks to conquer...More Strength to be gained… More Power to be aimed...
Ok ok Dear Reader I hope I haven’t Psyched u with my Surreal Computer Graphics Enabled Land of Dreams n fantasy of Inception movie Dream. I m back to Planet Earth long back ..N hope u wud come back as well. I bow to ur patience n interest u rendered in reading this mammoth article…Honk ..honk..Life is Calling and Life is Rocking..Time to Conquer the Day
Keep Smiling and Keep Shining
Sagar ….till we meet again
3 comments:
Wonderfully written. I have been practising Sudarshan Kriya since a year, yet the first Kriya experience is something that really stands out. It is too beautiful to be limited by words.
i am going to join for the sudarshan kriya cource
"and what more.a something like flower began to bloom in my stomach around navel region...something moving n alive n bouncing (i hoped it was no tumor)..." was it rising of your kudalini?
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