The End ! or The End??

FAIRY TALE CALLED DIPY

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t start I warn you. Don’t ask me any questions beyond which I already answered in this blog. Because I have no answers. Neither I have questions nor I have answers. Too many questions, inferences, opinions, innuendos, interpretations, feel free to have them but don’t feel free to share with me.

“How shall I define this relationship

That has no beginning or end

That was never there ,yet there

That has no form yet has form

Invisible yet Tangible

Some relations have no beginning or end

Never met, never separated

Never began, never end

Never defined, never understood

Never articulated, never spoken
Never acknowledged , just understood
Silent & Eternal”

This blogpost germinated some time ago as i waited train to arrive as she was leaving for her home town. Was scared that my logical mind kicks in and intellectual domination would erase sweetness of emotion. Which is the usual case with me..i seldom carry memories. Before I forget or rationalize I try to write it down and freeze particular emotion on fine print before it disappears in oceanic sands of time. Maybe I will revisit it though I know I cant feel the same feel once again. This blog may become dry withered write up in my next visit. However lemme regale while I can.

The 1st time i saw: believe me, i was totally frozen

When I first saw you. (i have seen u even before i met you) It was the feel like i have woken from deep rest, some ancient memory woken up in me. I remember calling my brother that day saying “if I don’t meet this girl, this life is of no use, come what may, no matter how many years it would take, iam gonna meet her” Well, finally we indeed met. After all I put my entire heart & soul in searching and finding you at edges of our country. Universe indeed bows to insistent & persistent heart!

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all it magic! Imagine Perfect Weather, Perfect Day. Gentle cool breeze, everything is perfect.  Such is ambiance I feel when iam with her. Just magical. Not that she is perfect. She has her own shortcomings but I always spent very less time with her before dragon in her could ever completely manifest. Some pal asked why don’t you get hitched with her. Nothing would be more insulting than that act. How can I trap such gentle flower in clutches of institution ? As long she is wild & free she is beautiful. Fix her in particular circumference, its all over. Like stagnant water gets spoiled. She is the most beautiful dream. Reality can be dangerous and dream breaker. I prefer to be in dream than face crushing reality. Its like MF Hussain muse of Madhuri Dixit. Inspiration for creative pursuits. Nothing beyond.  

U r my sin
U r my soul
I hate you
To the core
U r my folk lore
U r my muse
U r rhythm and blues

when i saw her first- I Met for first-My Last meeting

One of the main reasons I take so many of her photos is mere human effort to trap the time, capture the wonderful moments I have with u. But I know time passes away & its impossible to capture the experience I have with u once again. One second I spend with u is eternity itself. One life, beginning to end ,completely finished in a moment. You are beautiful dream. In world I created, you are the finest creation. Though in reality, I doubt it. I dont think we are compatible at all. My crudeness, Ur softness. Ur anger. My silence. Our divergent food habits. My hyper activity. Ur adorable laziness. Etc 

Yet. U r my inspiration. Ur presence inspires me to dream, smile often. Like myself. Ur presence definitely added beauty to my life, sweetness to my soul, make this moment more joyous. Magic has many names. One name I know is You!!

In ur presence, I dont see my cell
In ur conversation, I dont see time
In ur existence, I dont use tinder
In ur company, I dont think of any other

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he magic of Dipy began 2013. Well, that’s amazing for I tend to forget almost anyone without tinge of nostalgia once ways part. Call it destiny or past lives design, our paths crossed again&again, rekindling my awe of this girl. Don’t call it love. What ignorant term it as Love , I can come with multiple interpretations: Love, Lust, Attraction, Fling, Infatuation, ONS,FWB, thrill of chase etc etc. Sometimes i feel ignorance is bliss Coz You can finish your life within parameters of Date-Mate-Die.

“I understand why my number is not saved in your phone  and I also I understand why we are not connected on fb or WhatsApp or social media. I understand why iam "just a friend" in your conversation about me with your  other friends. I assure that iam not competing against anyone nor I want any special place for I prefer wings than roots.  

 Despite 7 years passed I hardly know what I mean for Dipy. I don’t define what I am to her like she never did with me. Just Be..!!  But again , as mysteriously it began, the magic broke down recently. Just vaporized. Don’t know why or how. Maybe Reality hit me harder and like Neo in film Matrix, I have woken up. Now, I think I will call it end.. The End! ………Or is it ??