Tuesday, July 23, 2013
RANDOM MUSINGS...!!!!
“When Gandhi exhorted “ Quit India” in 1942,,my grandpa misunderstood and went on to become India’s 1st NRI.”
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
RUSHDIES RUSTLINGS (Part 2)
RUSHDIES
RUSTLINGS (Part 2)
Sitting
all alone at pond in midst of nature with waves striking your leg playfully under
starry sky in AOL ashram, my mind with nothing to chew, regressed into recent
past over conversations that took place between me and a wonderful person
called “Rushdie” few months ago. (Hence forth “ Rush” for convenience, well my
dear reader, you will know more about this amazing character in next blog )
Couple
of months back, Rush said in fleeting conversation that " She TRUSTS totally. "
Well.,
my personal thesaurus is very small and limited in its content and words such
as these (Trust, nostalgia, forever, best pal etc etc) never figured in it. Not
that I am traitor by nature, I probably have more sense of"Right and Wrong " than
anyone around. But I am by nature Paranoid (professionally cultivated
professional hazard) and I do understand the working of real world.
Now
the question arises, Will I not feel bad when I get cheated or betrayed?..
Of
course I will!!! But my question will never be Why me? Why ? Why?…
it will always be How ..How…How did you do it?
it will always be How ..How…How did you do it?
I
don’t care why you cheated me. You have your reasons. I just want to know how
you did it so that next time I will be careful.
Better known devil then an unknown angel
Long
time ago before I got enlightened by ways of real world, one my so-called then-trusted-
pal fingered between me and my potential crush. Frankly with that, my relation
never took off and if you think I threw him out, you folks are mistaken. He IS
very much my friend even now. But now, iam more careful. Now that I know his
weak points and strong ones. I manage things in such way there is no option for
others to cheat or betray me.
There are no permanent
friends or foes. Only permanent interests.
Look
how European nations are reacting when USA spied on them after Edward snowdens revelations,
when they consider USA as their best friend. Words like Breach of Trust, Betrayal by Ally
are flying across Atlantic. But friends, since when did Intelligence agencies
work on trust? They work depending upon country’s interests not because someone
is their friend or foe.
This
is a hard fact. This is how world functions.
Its time even India snoop on world
based on Chanakya and Machiavellian principles rather than hide behind Indian
traditions like Ram rajya or Gandhi’s-Nehru legacy of Peace, Coexistence and Trust.
Mahabharata war , so called dharma
yuddha is totally filled with Adharma. Rama-the ideal man killed Vali in
treacherous way. Gods themselves cheat when they are born on this planet amongst
humans.
Yeah I can hear Rush screeching “ its cosmic game dumbo, karma, gods leela, your zero brains never will understand cosmic plan..blah blah…”
Maybe, may not be. I speak from common
mans point of view. Not from religious texts and top view. Iam no God.iam mere
common man
Gandhi was product of time. knew how to
use peace., He violently used peace very cleverly and threw out british buggers.
Nehru taking has principles literally
and not knowing how to use them,trusted blindly thus losing 1962 war and losing more than 60,000 kms to chinki
china.
All
talk about India being soft power is bullshit. You try to become soft power
when you are incapable of becoming hard power.
Eh asli duniya hai
–Boman irani to SRK in Don-1
Life
never works on pure logic. Bad things happen to good people. And great things
happen to undeserved. Like in chess match, our plan never works beyond first
few moves. We need to continuously have to reassess everything and drop what’s
unnecessary. Same thing with life ,buddies.
There
is no rule that Gods will side good people and bad people will get roasted in
hell. All these goodie goodie talk is only lull you and make you predictable
thus conspired by society. Quicker you understand that you are solely responsible
for good and bad being inflicted upon you, the better , thus saving agony of
mental tension over unanswered questions such as Why me Why me…
Given
a chance, every one will behave in most unfair way. Only fear of reprisals and
repercussion stop you from being in that way. Only
weak and helpless speak of morals. Nature of world is such that at every moment(
almost) , exploitation takes place…in some way or the other…in smaller or
bigger scale.
If things go wrong, no sentiments..Accept
defeat. Pick whats left over and move on. If you have guts, plan for next move
or else just walk off. Nothing to be embarrassed . This is how world is
designed.
What’s there to be embarrassed and seeing whom
should we be embarrassed? I am of firm belief that we are no super important person
that around world should revolve. I have no big fancy ideas about myself. I do
what I can. Iam what iam. Worlds or society’s opinion is not required.. who
cares for one insignificant person such as me in gigantic planet teeming with 7
billion population and look how insignificant our own planet which is mere
micro dot in unlimited galaxies.
Sweet dreams are made
of this.Who am I to disagree?
Traveled the world and the seven seas.
Everybody's looking for something.
Some of them want to use you.
Some of them want to get used by you.
Some of them want to abuse you.
Some of them want to be abused.
~Marylin Manson
Now
the question comes if I would break anyone’s trust or betray anyone. Well
whatever I write, whatever I believe, whatever my mind says… there something
like basic DNA program which runs your life from cradle to grave. That will
never allow me to break my word once I give.
Never
in my recorded history I ever broke my word, even if it means changing the
dynamics of destiny. Don’t believe it????. Ask my friends across the planet
Like I said (or boasted playfully) in my previous
blog.
“Praveen Sagar breaking Word is not remote probability but an Absolute Impossibility.”
Now
what do I see in air?...rushdies verbal projectiles? eeeks haaa
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Bangalore Diaries: Praveen Vs Praveen
Praveen Vs Praveen
Very softly
I blurted , almost in whisper “ Anna ..Check mate..!!!”
With no
expression in my face, I saw time in my wrist watch. Its 12.30 am. That was the
end of match I waited for three months which wound up in 45 minutes exact.
All the
decorum and decency suddenly left me as I maniacally started laughing and
rolling over. It was kind of volcano of vented up frustration gone amok.
The beginning
of this story began 3 months back when I was horribly defeated in chess just in
3 moves by satya Praveen anna (10 yrs ago I adopted him as my unofficial older
brother,). None of other games I played lasted more than 5 minutes. Frankly I
never play chess as it strains my tiny brains. Even baby can beat me with eyes
shut and never in my life did I ever win any game. But losing in 3 steps is record in itself.
Otherwise he
would deliberately tease with me without checkmating me as he in great leisure swallows
one after another pieces . Frustrated as SRK in Jab tak hai jaan, I made a tripartite
agreement with God-I-don’t-belive-in and this Bhaiyaa that I would go back and
be back to challenge him every month in Bangalore, till end of time. Even if it
takes me to be re born million times over, I wont rest till I defeated him on
his own turf. Ala Arnold Schwarzenegger in Terminator-2, I said “ I will be back”
I object to being called a chess genius because I consider
myself to be an all around genius who just happens to play chess, which is
rather different.—Bobby Fischer
Cut back to
present. And I am back.
We both dug
our heads into our hands concentrating deeply. It was his move. I could see
that if he pushed his Castle straight, I am screwed. It’s scary. Give bhai even
one chance, he would unleash worst genocide on chess board. I wondered how to
skew his mind now. Shall I play some dirty mind games at this juncture? Shall I
rake up some old painful memories so his mental balance goes for a toss?
During FIFA
finals, opposition player Marco Materazzi deliberately abused Zidane of france which enraged him
consequently losing world cup due to loss of judgment in crucial moments.
- Tactics flow from a positionally superior game. Best by test. -.—Bobby Fischer
But somehow
my mind was too intense and words failed to come out. Moreover as I was
debating about fair play, instead of taking Castle forward, He took it behind
to protect his King.
Gods of Luck
are certainly on my side today.
Thanks to my
more than 300 games I practiced everyday in last 3 months on my laptop. I
recognized the pattern of play. Even slight expression on face would alert him,
so I buried my face further in my palms though deep inside me, I was having a
wicked laughter.
It is difficult to play
against Einstein’s theory.
- Mikhail Tal, after his first loss to Fischer,
When we sat
for a match , my only goal was just to extend the game for more than 15
minutes, if possible try taking few of his soldiers. Not more. Don’t think this
bhaiya as ordinary man. He is one of the youngest regional mangers, country
managers and rose to high ranks in Siemens with brilliant maneuvering of his
hyper shrewd mind. Even before can you react, his calculating mind would have
gone miles into future before he makes his next move. His negotiating skills
are real intellectual treat to be witnessed.
I'm not afraid of Spassky. The world knows I'm the best. You
don't need a match to prove it. .—Bobby Fischer
But all
biographies of eccentric chess genius Bobby
fischer I read in last 3 months prompted me to be little bolder. I made
mental strategy.
1) Control the centre
2) Protect king through strong castling
3) Play defense drag the match for more than 15 minutes
Winning was never my goal. I know how dangerous this guy is . so I didn’t
commit mistake of being hyper ambitious. So this was a small defensive tactic
rather than an elaborate long range combative strategy
When I began
the game , this is what I did. My pawns went to control the centre of board
thus restricting his long range attacks. Next I fortified my King with
Castling.
Being follower
of Gandhi and believer of non-violence, I didn’t start any killings though I
had a chance. He drew first blood by breaking my pawns dominance of
Centre. Though blindly I allowed my second
wave of pawn movement on Centre field, later I realized, by not killing I made
smartest move. Without killing I totally restricted anykind of movement in
centre field. (my goal is, no matter what, not to let Centre field to fall)
With centre field
locked, he was not able to breach his ranks into my side of board. But
conversely it also doesn’t allow me to go for long range attacks. But my goal
is just to drag match for more than 15 minutes or longer. Stale mate or Draw
can be icing on cake.
I the mind, body a mere auxiliary –Sherlock Holmes
Like bobby
fischer who specialized in openings, bhai specialized in queen-attacks with deadliest consequences on
his opponents. The moment I feared came when he brought out his Queen to
unleash its deadly dexterity on my soldiers.
As I said
earlier, Lady luck is just in awesome love with me this day. I countered his
Queen with oddest and least expected piece . My Horse.
Frankly I
have to feel proud about following moves. My horse went on rampage of millennium.
For first time, he went on defense by taking back his queen back to his side of
board. But nevertheless my Horse went amok with absolute impunity. I triple
forked him. Meaning my horse was in such position, that his three most
important generals: Castle. Bishop and Queen were within my sniper cross hairs.
Wow. I breached into his side of board.
I was little
perplexed with turn of events which started moving at blind pace. I wondered if
I should slow up a bit to relax my stretched brains.
Didn’t
Krishna advised to Arjuna so did Morpheus to Neo in matrix. “Damn the
compassion and Go for kill” or put bluntly like Branson of virgin Atlantic. ” Screw it, lets do it”
In swift
executions, In subsequent moves, i finished off his Castle, Bishop, and finally
his Nuclear missile: The Queen.
With his
long range missiles like Castle, Queen dead, I relaxed my hold on centre. I let
all my pieces to run amok. What followed was blind killings and suicide bombings.
We both killed as many as we could. Randomly and blindly.
“One” he
screeched, as all his pieces died leaving his King standing alone on battle
field.
“WON”? I got
confused? Is it Draw or Stale mate.
Vishwanath
anand committed same mistake in past. Taking his superior position granted, he
unwittingly Stale-mated his game thus screwing the game which he was about to
win.
Only later I
understood. That in next 16 moves I have to end the match or else its Draw.
Now iam in
sticky position. All he need to do is fend me off for next 16 moves and my goal
is to stop his dance of dilly dallying PLUS KILL him.
His goal is
Status quo and I cannot imagine at this juncture that Status quo is status of
future.
Now pendulum
of victory can move either side. Now what began was battle of wits. I know this
guy better than anyone, I saw him in
negotiating avatars. He can bring out ace even in most sticky positions.
Topolov (Bulgarian grand master)once played against 4 chess players
blindfolded. I tried same, trying to see all next moves in mind.
TWO.
THREE.FOUR : I merely allowed some aimless movements as quietly I cut of all
escape routes with my Castle and Queen
Five: I
cornered King
What
followed was similar to
Bobby
fischer vs VladmirSpassky
V Anand vs
Topolov
Tendukar vs
shoib akthar
Harry potter
vs voldmort
Micheal
corleaone vs barzini n 5 other mafia families
a Clean kill…!!!!
Six: Very softly I blurted , almost in whisper “
bhaiya Check mate..!!!”
Phew . I
muttered myself. No rebirths. No re matches. (luck can be fickle and my skill
is totally unpredictable)
At 12.30
am.14.june.2013. 45th minute is my golden moment. I know , this is
no big match or atleast competitive. But for me. This personal battle means a
lot. It my word.. Buttress to my will. Fulfillment of my word, oath I took 3
months ago.
Thank god ,
the feat that I felt would take million
re births, ended in 3 months.
Didn’t SRK
in Don say something like this\
“ Praveen ,breaking his promise is not remote probability but an absolute impossibility”
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