Corona Post-2: Who are Real Heros??

Corona post 2: We all are Heros.

These days there is sufficient gaps of free time for me to waste and crib around. All corona effect. Couple of days back one of my friend in security forces forwarded me a whatsapp message stating how some Para commandos were killed in some action. I was quite surprised , how come when elite commandos got killed , no newspaper screamed for war, or news channels roared at Pakistan from depths of throats , nor any retd General in high decibel debate on right wing channel declared surgical strike?. How come nothing happened?

Virus that brought world to knees

Couple of weeks back 15 security forces were slaughtered in Naxal attack in Sukma district. The news figured in some corner of newspapers. On any other day, entire drama would have ensued on how forces had poor equipment, intel failure or one party blaming other, Akshay kumar would have extended his solidarity and some other film director planning on movie on incident. How come nothing of such sorts happened ?

The people who were killed from elite para. There was time patriotism means jawan in battle fatigues. Later it was officers of rank “Lt or Major” (I think Lt Col is more uncle for movies). Now the trend is nothing short of Maroon berets, the elite Para commandos whose legends are spoken in hush & awe. Same with police force. Earlier it was SI rank guy who could have clobbered big Don. Later it was Encounter specialists , the darling of police lore. Now its IPS officers.

Now the nation latest heros are Doctors & Health Dept who are combating tirelessly against Global contagion virus Corona. I think world for my generation hence forth would be Pre Corona and Post Corona. Well, while not taking any glory & fame from any profession, I think , public are fickle in their adulation. And also every crisis brought new Heros.

When Sept 11,2001 terror attacks happened, Fire fighters were new heros. When Mission Mars by ISRO began, Scientists were splashed in all media and our patriot Akshay kumar made movie Mission Mangalyan. (hope I got the name right. Not much into films). When Veerapan the elusive bandit was killed, Special Task Force (Tamilnadu) were glorified by Chief Minister. Post Pulwama, Indian Airforce were Warriors. (Do I hear Uri-II in pipeline?Haha). In between all don’t forget Salman khan & Sunny Deol and others as RAW agents deep in Pakistan whacking entire regiment singlehandedly. Farmer march in maharahstra brought farmers into forefront.During Demonetization , Bankers were new superheros (and we all wished we had banker friends 😊 isn’t it?.), Rest of time Tech Giants & Global Billion Dollar Corporates steal the show. And RajiniKanth is always hero who can frighten Ghosts &Aliens & Robots alike. 

Once I was talking with some pretty head who has multiple friends in all arms of Security forces who confessed: “Every security wing claims to be primary force and last line defence”. Victory would be claimed by all forces. Batkal the dreaded terror, on whom flop film “Indias most Wanted” was made, it seems every department claimed to have caught him viz Delhi team, Bihar team, Spl Ops, SSB, Police etc. My senior from Revenue Dept from college says, all these Securty forces are bombastic with little to contribute. For State , its Revenue first, Security comes second. Nation can be ruled by anyone. For common man it means nothing as we seen in history. Be it Mughals, Hindus or British, Common man just didn’t care (except few, blame it on diversity & conflicting ideologies). But Revenue dept was most sought after then and now. (District Collector is best example. Collector literally means one who collects taxes). By the way, my senior is no empty braggart. He is responsible for Govt of India securing 400 crore from tax fraud.

Farmers March in Mumbai

I guess speaking to so many people from different sectors , Public-Private-PSU, who is most important or her
o of the State? Well, I think while man with gun (Security forces) always stir up emotions of patriotism and raw courage, every department is contributing their share. State is gigantic structure every small nut & bolt is as important as pivotal structure. Remove one tiny nut, entire structure would collapse. Every organization is as important as other. There are bad apples and heros in every organization.

From other angle,  I think aam admi or common citizen is real hero. He has no super powers such as Red light on his vehicle, weapon to defend. He votes diligently , pays his taxes obediently . He faces worst discrimination on daily basis. yet hopes for brighter tomorrow. Who are these Aam Admi? Its our mothers & fathers. Its You!!     What do you say??

Corona Post-1, Palm Sunday Post

As usual my alarm in my phones started buzzing hours before sun break . As I woke up I realized its Sunday and decided to relax a bit and give my routine life a break. That means eat some junk , no exercise , pamper myself a bit (like taking my weekly bath with half bucket of water (save water dude!). ..

The moment I decided to relax, body has become hyper active and fresh. I was surprised! Coz Daily it groans and comes with million excuses why it cant wear shoes for a jog or lack of time to do all chores. But today its vitality is high&mood fresh. I notice my mind is missing my diet or exercise. Mind is cunning creature. It always wants what you don’t want or have. Its like we like to go school only on holidays.

Well saying that, couple of days back I happen to know about a girl. She was just out of world or so I felt. Globe solo traveler, entrepreneur, with amazing adventurous stories adding to her life resume. Her biography was too sizzling and for a moment it stirred my amnesic  masculinity,  redundant buried brains & comatose body. Then I remembered all women in my life viz from family to half-gfs, childish crushes etc. All were hyper capable than me. And I am always at awe of them. Infact if not for their constant prodding and nagging, I would have been still a primitive caveman in some cave happily content with my stone club & cave. Every person I come across seem to be better than me. While one friend of mine takes loan to travel, I cancel tickets in less than 2 minutes out of fear of solo travel (and with heavy cancellation fees). “What a pathetic life I live”…that’s what others think…haha

@AndhraBhavan,Delhi:  Enjoying small pleasures & gifts of life.

Wait, despite of all negatives in my life when was the last time I felt sad? Not in recent memory !..when was the last time I felt miserable ? Almost never! We seem to focus on others life high points or FB pix so much that we forget great things in our own lives. Grass is not just green other side, Its also green where you focus and water. We always seem to be living on borrowed dreams. We all are heros & villans in some or other persons story. While feeling envious of someones large life-resume, I forget iam quite good in million things which probably evoke awe & envy in many others. No matter how passionate we are with our work, over a period of time it becomes monotonous. And here at this point, we look out of our lives to peep into others. Looking closely enough, we find what we want to find. Focus on things you have, you have plenty to be of gratitude; focus on bad, list would be endless misery. Its your choice. Iam sure there is no end to desires. I am not saying to lead stagnant life. Iam just saying while learning from others, stop comparing with others and be proud of whatever you are. (unless u r me..haha).

Btw to those don’t know, I lead very joyful fulfilled life effortlessly .  

Lives before Life

Lives before this Life

I happen to listen to some story on Youtube which speaks on children who happen to remember their past lives with accuracy. There was a Indian girl child who remembered her past life and went on to identify her husband & family from past life. This story was well documented. One or two incidents could be fake.  But internet is inundated with so many that , its hard any longer to discount it. The Abrahamic religions (Judasim/islam/Christainity) speak of one life where as Asian religions (Hinduism, Buddhism, Jainism ) are sure of multiple lives dating back to the beginning of life.

I personally met a south African (Vandy) of Indian origin has very interesting tale of his own past life .  Vandy is poet-spiritual gypsy who led hippie life. Dabbling with drugs and substance abuse he travelled across world before resting for few days in Nepal. Here he separated from his group and travelled to India( to die in land of his forefathers as he said). Being broke financially he lived through odd works in ashram where he met an Estonian PLR practitioner . Born as Christian he couldn’t fathom concept of past life till he experienced it. That Estonian took him to past life through hypnosis where he saw he was a bald monk in Uttar Kashi. Even Uttar kashi didn’t ring any bell as he never visited India before. Subsequently in his travels he comes to a valley and old memories beyond current life wakens. He recognizes valley, villages which he discovers it to be Uttar Kashi. Continuing what he left in past life, he joins Art of Living ashram, learns astrology, Ayurveda, yoga. Once his visa expires he goes back to South Africa to lead life of spiritual LSD (laugh, song, Dance). More about him here in this link (http://brahmagyani.blogspot.com/)

With night still young and sleep nowhere in vicinity I know a person whom South african met in Aol Ashram (we all met there) born in months of cusp of Death & Birth sunsign. He claims all his current life tendencies attributed to his past life. On probing further how he could figure it out, PLR (Past life regression) was his reply. I know PLR works to some , doesn’t work to many, and quite a lot fake through claiming themselves as kings or heros of past. None say they were pig or criminal or ordinary person ever. All kings & Knights.

He speaks how PLR took him from Human to animal to back to plant life. How far is it true is not something neither he or me could vouch for. But its interesting to hear.

As he went back to his past even as he was aware of his surroundings during PLR, he could see himself as Buddhist woman from Tibet wearing all warm clothes in a hut. In another life time , he was army general . Though born during war, he was more administrator or back office guy than a combatant. Going deeper he was a painter in kings court showing off his colourful paintings. Much further he was some roman soldier killed by spear. Moving more further he was fish in water and even before that he was small innocuous plant in a Gurujis ashram.

What went from weird to bizarre was the link he made all above stories to current life. In this current life his inclination to Tibetan Buddhist teachings, Painting & spiritual affiliation to Art of Living was linked back to his life  Tibetan woman and plant in ashram (Ashram in past life was of Sri Sri Ravi Shankar as he claims) , voracious appetite to Nazi Germany and World war 2  history continued to extent that he took military machinations like duck to water to get into paramilitary in this life. Born in cusp, his love for life in all kinds & spiritual life contravenes his job of unspiritual deeds. The twain still not met or came in terms with each other.

Did soul carry old tendencies to new Life? Maybe, as he says he never took classes in art nor worked hard in current job or tried to break head to understand spiritual esoteric studies. All came naturally from birth with little or no effort. How far is it true? I have no clue but sounded interesting when I first heard of it.  Hope you enjoyed it..What do you say??

Just wondering..

      I always wondered how few lines on paper can change course of history & change the future. Either of one person or country or entire humanity. Books that have ability to become agents of change.

Paulo coelho took only 18 days to finish "Alchemist " and it will influence for next 18 generations. Jules Verne wrote "20,000 leagues under the sea" and other exalted sci-fi books in 18th century when nòne of machines he wrote about were, even existed (that included Submarine & spacecraft's that influenced scientists in future).While "Holy Bible" continues to influence humanity , Das Capital & communist manifesto almost brought world on brink of world war. Not forgetting Books like Walden & Bagavatgita strengthened the will of Mahatma Gandhi to put curtains to British colonialism. Harry Potter books brought back millions of kids to read books and pull them away from online world and books like Autobiography of yogi , inspired world on Indian spirituality. If Mein Kampf by Hitler brought anger, Books by Dalai lama & Neslon Mandela brought awe in people..

I truly wonder how a person can write such inspiring books indeed..

2019: The year that was...!!!

Friends! How did your 2019 fare? Good?, Bad? Ugly? Phenomenal? Mixed bag? It’s a chilly day out here and sitting alone in my flat I just happen to look back at 2019. 2019 for me personally seem to be transitional. Transitional I say as I happen to see subtle nevertheless obvious changes in me. Personally, Professionally, Spiritually etc.

Year began with lovely books

   I don’t know why these changes took place. But I believe (which I may be wrong) because of either iam getting older hence more mature such that I can see events from perspective or meditation, which I seem to have done with some regularity has given me greater clarity. Whatsoever is the reason , this year I met more number of people, read more books, meditated more, Met people whom i havent met for 5 years, More thankful & gratitude to Universe, More positive, , Ate healthy, satisfied career, led more healthy life, exercised more, relaxed and content…finally “Yeh Dil Mange More”.

             Other day my barber who lives close by , remarked:

“Sir, I never see you partying, roaming or with any social life. You eat alone, move alone, never seem to talk on films or regular gossip”.

few of many interesting books i happen to read

              Well, its not easy to be in relationship with me and I find it hard to mix with people. Its sheer torture for me to suffer others ignorance and  stupidity. Not that iam smarter or more intelligent, but so far iam more contented and I cant bear anyone’s presence (& their complaints of life) beyond half an hour. I easily get bored of anyone nor I subscribe to others philosophies . I am not introvert but very very few things excite me and most of world is not into those things. Iam more text-person than talk-person. Iam more book-person that hangout-person. Quite a complicated character I guess iam and I aint yet intelligent to figure myself out.

Life turning self help books i read this year

The Mystical Journey of Life :

Professionally I began to enjoy my work than worry over results. The job well done generated more satisfaction than that of rewards & awards that might/may come consequently. I began to jump at any new experience in work more willingly, knowing new experience, be it success of failure would only enrich me professionally. Every work challenge I moved with “I Can”! mindset. Not once did I ever say to my boss negatively. Its always “ Its done or it will be done”. Somehow I was definitely sure that I could pull the solution out or Universe is benevolent in revealing itself.

Personally I could see vast changes within me. In Dec 2018, hardly I could run 100 metres without chest paining and lungs bursting. Come Dec 2019, I could easily run 10Km before the first bead of sweat breaks in. Been living minimal as much as possible. I cut down useless junk in life, be it humans or old clothes or electronic stuff. By end of day I deleted all social media messages/chat conversations. The idea is to delete “idea of memory and allied emotions” attached to it. (well, married men cant do it of course, hahahaha). Dumped old/new things which I felt I am no longer happy with even if I spent bomb on them.

most wise book i read this year

Beginning of year I undergone yoga training which I more or less practiced it regularly. I guess that’s where results crept from. There seems tremendous confidence gushing in me. I began to have greater clarity over life and events (sometimes scared that confidence might have led to arrogance). I happen to have greater control over my emotions. I was ready to let go and leave irrelevant issues to others advantage than fight stubbornly. I began to accept things as they are than worry over “if perhaps, it should ve been like this”.

There were some experiences which made me more sympathetic to world outside me. Hence I decided to do my part to society, be it materially or ideologically. I decided to donate at least 10% of my salary to disadvantaged sections of society. I wish greater confidence could be inculcated among children from rural areas or social welfare hostels. My identity in society and my identity in vast universe seems to become clear. As my social identity gets concretized, My identity in vast creation seems more confused or blending in itself.   Looks like iam evolving..Am i? I wonder.

Thus my 2019 ended. It could be launchpad for future . Lets see how experiences that enriched my soul in 2019 would impact my life by end of 2020.

The End ! or The End??

FAIRY TALE CALLED DIPY

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t start I warn you. Don’t ask me any questions beyond which I already answered in this blog. Because I have no answers. Neither I have questions nor I have answers. Too many questions, inferences, opinions, innuendos, interpretations, feel free to have them but don’t feel free to share with me.

“How shall I define this relationship

That has no beginning or end

That was never there ,yet there

That has no form yet has form

Invisible yet Tangible

Some relations have no beginning or end

Never met, never separated

Never began, never end

Never defined, never understood

Never articulated, never spoken
Never acknowledged , just understood
Silent & Eternal”

This blogpost germinated some time ago as i waited train to arrive as she was leaving for her home town. Was scared that my logical mind kicks in and intellectual domination would erase sweetness of emotion. Which is the usual case with me..i seldom carry memories. Before I forget or rationalize I try to write it down and freeze particular emotion on fine print before it disappears in oceanic sands of time. Maybe I will revisit it though I know I cant feel the same feel once again. This blog may become dry withered write up in my next visit. However lemme regale while I can.

The 1st time i saw: believe me, i was totally frozen

When I first saw you. (i have seen u even before i met you) It was the feel like i have woken from deep rest, some ancient memory woken up in me. I remember calling my brother that day saying “if I don’t meet this girl, this life is of no use, come what may, no matter how many years it would take, iam gonna meet her” Well, finally we indeed met. After all I put my entire heart & soul in searching and finding you at edges of our country. Universe indeed bows to insistent & persistent heart!

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all it magic! Imagine Perfect Weather, Perfect Day. Gentle cool breeze, everything is perfect.  Such is ambiance I feel when iam with her. Just magical. Not that she is perfect. She has her own shortcomings but I always spent very less time with her before dragon in her could ever completely manifest. Some pal asked why don’t you get hitched with her. Nothing would be more insulting than that act. How can I trap such gentle flower in clutches of institution ? As long she is wild & free she is beautiful. Fix her in particular circumference, its all over. Like stagnant water gets spoiled. She is the most beautiful dream. Reality can be dangerous and dream breaker. I prefer to be in dream than face crushing reality. Its like MF Hussain muse of Madhuri Dixit. Inspiration for creative pursuits. Nothing beyond.  

U r my sin
U r my soul
I hate you
To the core
U r my folk lore
U r my muse
U r rhythm and blues

when i saw her first- I Met for first-My Last meeting

One of the main reasons I take so many of her photos is mere human effort to trap the time, capture the wonderful moments I have with u. But I know time passes away & its impossible to capture the experience I have with u once again. One second I spend with u is eternity itself. One life, beginning to end ,completely finished in a moment. You are beautiful dream. In world I created, you are the finest creation. Though in reality, I doubt it. I dont think we are compatible at all. My crudeness, Ur softness. Ur anger. My silence. Our divergent food habits. My hyper activity. Ur adorable laziness. Etc 

Yet. U r my inspiration. Ur presence inspires me to dream, smile often. Like myself. Ur presence definitely added beauty to my life, sweetness to my soul, make this moment more joyous. Magic has many names. One name I know is You!!

In ur presence, I dont see my cell
In ur conversation, I dont see time
In ur existence, I dont use tinder
In ur company, I dont think of any other

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he magic of Dipy began 2013. Well, that’s amazing for I tend to forget almost anyone without tinge of nostalgia once ways part. Call it destiny or past lives design, our paths crossed again&again, rekindling my awe of this girl. Don’t call it love. What ignorant term it as Love , I can come with multiple interpretations: Love, Lust, Attraction, Fling, Infatuation, ONS,FWB, thrill of chase etc etc. Sometimes i feel ignorance is bliss Coz You can finish your life within parameters of Date-Mate-Die.

“I understand why my number is not saved in your phone  and I also I understand why we are not connected on fb or WhatsApp or social media. I understand why iam "just a friend" in your conversation about me with your  other friends. I assure that iam not competing against anyone nor I want any special place for I prefer wings than roots.  

 Despite 7 years passed I hardly know what I mean for Dipy. I don’t define what I am to her like she never did with me. Just Be..!!  But again , as mysteriously it began, the magic broke down recently. Just vaporized. Don’t know why or how. Maybe Reality hit me harder and like Neo in film Matrix, I have woken up. Now, I think I will call it end.. The End! ………Or is it ??

Journey& Journal of Desi Singleton

Journey& Journal of Desi Singleton

Where should I start? Is being single joyful or jarring? Well, it’s both. My Bosses always relish in saying “You are free, what work you have in home, let family men go early etc”. I wanna say (though never said for routine obvious reasons hahaha) We singleton have more work and things to worry about than married family men. I ve to be both wife-husband, parents-children , master-maid etc. all roles rolled into one person and to be done by one man. There is no someone to do domestic backoffice job (like paying bills, cleaning house, vehicle  service etc). Worst case scenario is when/if you fall ill. You have to fend yourself.

Saying this, Ive my own advantage. I can be more bolder than rest. I can relish my own hobbies and lots of Me-time. Splurge  money as there is not many to share with.

 

 Lazy& confused. slipper or shoes?

Again there are times your brain feeds on itself. Being alone can bring in dormant demons to life. Loneliness can be at times dangerously excruciating.(Many go lunatic & even commit suicide) No one to talk or share your inner most feelings. No near or dear. I think many of couples quarrel due to lack of inner peace & outer attention to self. Arguments and quarrels might be way to feed inner ego and kill time/boredom. Human mind abhors vacuum and idleness. It always wants to feed on something or,….someone..No choice or no defensive mechanisms. you have to fight your own devils.

 

decade old pic from west coast

Saying that there were times your (my) inner child craves applause from near&dear. “I finished my Race, I got promoted, I got raise, I read this awesome book or watched this wonderful film!”. But when I looked around, I had none with whom I could share. I just walk off quietly. There could be 1000s of adventure photos of mine lying untouched or unseen. Even by myself.

But yet no regrets. This is life I have chosen. (hope my confidence doesn’t break down till death). Iam not easy man to be in relationship with. On one end I ve strong sense of opinions and on other end iam very nonchalant & comfortable and enjoy my ignorance. Queer mix of intelligence & ignorance.And at times, outright stupid.

 

No choice. Fight devils alone!

I can be lazy or lousy or leap at speed of light. No one to control me. I can be lazy bum or ecstatic ballistic missile. I can talk nonstop for hours on my favourite topics or be stone cold silent for days. I can make my own decisions even if they go wrong without absolute fear of society, friends or relatives or apes in amazon. I hate pple trying to impose their views&decisions. I would certainly listen to all, respect their advice&expertise. From there I decide on my own. This upsets many. But this is my life. I give you freedom and now I take mine. Nothing personal.

Being alone for so long that I forgot how to live with other person under same roof intimately or even share your life with others. I jealously guard my privacy. I keep my life very lean & in control. No unnecessary material goods or humans or even opinions.(call it japanese art of minimalism or My art of laziness)

 

Books keep me Sane

Probing deeper I wonder if iam 100% alone? I don’t think so. If married people hang to their Loan EMI&Investments wife&kids, gossip& relationships etc I hold on to my dreams, hobbies which are endless. Maybe I should say I ve less human contacts but not with life in general.

So is being alone & single good or bad? Well, maybe both. Depends on person to person & time to time. One man can suffer for not being married and another man suffer coz he is married. one man is seeking partner while other is running away from partner. You see what I mean? I believe it’s better you suffer for your own choices than choices imposed by society.

HUNTING HITLER & THE GREAT HACK

HUNTING HITLER & THE GREAT HACK

Two of the awesome documentaries I happen to see offlate were Hunting Hitler & The great hack.

Hunting Hitler was on premise that Hitler never died in Bunker but escaped.Earlier i read "The Grey Wolf" on same topic. But as an Conspiracy theory buff, iam game for everything weird. The History Channel team really uses awesome cutting edge technologies like portable ground radar, air&underwater drones, bots, mapping technologies etc. 

Series had conspiracy written all over. Ratlines  through which thousands of Nazis escaped from Berlin to Argentina (Rememeber Odessa Ratline), involvement of RedCross & Catholic church (as latter hated communists, they helped Nazis flee), interviews with tons of witnesses, Private islands underground passages, secret submarine bases, sunken subs&jets, underground bunkers, German nazi controlled banks, colonies, fortified houses in jungles, power plants, front&Shell companies and massive mind boggling logistics , development of nuclear weapons spread over in jungles and cities of Uruguay, Paraguay, Chile, Argentina etc  All for establishment of Fourth Reich.

Whether Hitler really escaped or not was not conclusively proved. But scores of top leadership like Adolf Eichmann, Josef Mengle, Martin Borman all disappeared after war.( 1^st guy was caught by Mossad in famed operation (later it was known that Argentina itself allowed the operation to take place so that it wouldn’t look like it gave up war criminal it helped to  live safely for years), 2^nd guy died natural death. 3^rd disappeared totally). As World war-2 Nazi Germany enthusiast, this show was sheer thrilling.

The infrastructure, planning that went into escape, subsequent rehabilitation &resurgence is just too immense to comprehend. Germans were truly geniuses. Most of advanced scientific achievements (civil&military) like colour TV, AK47,Submarines, code&cryptography, missiles, stealth technologies etc all had their origins in Nazi germany. No wonder, post war, both USSR and USA hurried to snatch as many scientists as they can. (Op Paper clip if I remember clearly)

The Great Hack on Netflix

The Great Hack on Netflix: It’s a massive PsyOps of different kind. But methods were similar though used for non-military purposes. Cambridge Analytica , a company was hired by Trump Team before elections which engineered his victory (one of the many factors we can say).It has harvested the personal data from social networks like FB etc and induced the user through personalized advertising/campaigning. They hired psychologists and analysts. Online harmless psychometric tests  which we play for fun to know our character or type of person we are, that data is cleverly taken from entire nation and divided on base of age/religion/likes/dislikes/orientation/political views & affiliation/ personal choice/preferences etc. Subsequently a model is built and based on those models, voters were induced.

 

Check the Trailer on youtube

In that documentary accidently I happen to see pic of Indian Congress, one of the client of Cambridge Analytica. Then howcome they didn’t win in India>? Simple!, India isn’t as digital as Amerika is.

Now the question arises, how sure are we that thoughts we think are actually ours? Are we manipulated to particular action or opinion by some clever copywriter or foreign agency?. The sudden hunger or desire for something yummy could be high resolution banner of food you saw which triggered ur memory for particular kind of food. Similarly 90% of our choices in life must ve framed by some medium. Russia is traditionally masters of deception. Their Psyops extend to decades of patient operation where in they change the opinion of entire nation to suit their designs. “Disinformation  by Lt Gen Ion Mihai Pacepa” is one rare book which gives peek into Russian psyops/propaganda warfare across the world.(Wiki it for stunning revelations &book is on free download).

 Just an example: Carrot is just not the only reason for good eyesight. But during war, british deliberately spread the propaganda  of linking carrots with good eye sight due to which they were able to blast german jets when they actually want to avoid the real reason being new radar tech they developed. This is deception at work and still continuing.