Tuesday, May 7, 2013

THE HUNDREDTH BLOG


Preamble:

The best excuse for people to get rid of something is to say that it is very diffcult. When you consider something difficult, you can never reach there. Nothing is diffcult; you just need a desire  to do it – Sri sri

Well I never counted how many blogs I authored till recently when I saw the statistics.
99 not out..!!!
I never thought I would write 100 junk stuff when I actually started out this blog “ Chronicles of idle grey cells”. Statistics show that blog on Sudarshan kriya garnered the highest hits followed by Devipuram tantric temple.  Who cares if iam at 100 in blogosphere or zero. Numbers and labels never fascinated me.

I had few days before I have to join my new posting so I wanna do whatever is possible..climbing mountains…drenching in seas..finally finish Advance Meditation course at AOL, Bangalore.
I always wanna quote some of quotable quotes, hence though not relevant to topic on hand I liberally splattered them across this blog.

Three idiots: 


Our consciousness is very old, very ancient. When I travel around the world,, I don’t feel like iam meeting strangers, I feel like they are part of me and I know them, we may not know each others names, but we know each others souls; we feel connection. I have always felt that we all belong to one family. We all know each other. Sri Sri


This is short story of 3 idiots who met in AOL ashram and had wild whale of time. The

electrifying fun we had was just out of this world. Ek dum extraordinary. It was as if we knew each other for millions of years. Never in my life I had such a laughter. Even when we were under oath of silence we had wars with wild gestures leaving us in splits of peals of laughter. Its as if we are emanating laughing chemicals mixed with happy hormone dopamine’s. Seriously we all felt withdrawal symptoms when we went on our ways after course. Well…that’s amazing fun . Someone in course asked me after seeing our crazy antics. Why are u laughing so much.?? ..well dude.. Spirituality is all about happiness. If enlightenment gives me serious dead pan face…iam better without it ..Better be an ignorant happy man rather than enlightened serious man. 
well the names of one idiot is QUICK GUN FAL-GUN and JESUS the JAT YOGI  and myself . since this is 3 idiot then there should also be lovely kareena...yes...there is ... 

And special mention was equally interesting very mischievous naughty chirpy mirchi girl and a geek who puts every one at ease with her conversational skills. Since they are tiny humans of female species, lets us leave their privacy untouched.
This 100th blog is dedicated to these interesting souls




What is important is that you remain CONTENTED. You must keep evaluating urself  from time to time. Ask yourself what you are doing all the time. Even if something brings pain in the short run, but iin long run it is beneficial to everyone then that is the right thing to do.
n  Sri Sri 

Experience:

The course goes for 4 days . 1st day introduction and next 2.5 days silence. So 1st day we three gossiped, talked enough to last for another week. It was funny how man reacts when he senses lack of anything in future. During war times, when death was imminent..people go on rape rampage ( chck world war 2 , except Indian soldiers. Everyone raped woman. Even 1971 same story by pakis) or see how prisoners on death sentence eat favourite food)

In this course I understood difference between Empty silence and Complete silence. In between the course .on 1st day of silence. My mind went into deepest of its recess and suddenly it froze. All never ending incessant thoughts froze for 1st time. I became empty. Its like life just passing through me without touching me. Wow .is this what silence does to a man. I was completely objective devoid of any judgment. No interpretations. No emotions. No feelings. No past. No future.No judgments. Just living. That’s all and that’s it.



Don’t look for respect from others; that makes you weak. Have respect for urself and no one can take ur self respect
n Sri sri 
I understood what actually happened inside me. For once my sense organs have fallen silent. They were receiving all data from outer world but they just received it without adding any interpretation to it. Usually how my mind acts is : if I sense anything., I take raw data add my own interpretation from past experiences or future dreams. U see a rose…u connect red color to blood or valentine or ex gf and all stories connected with her etc etc. u listen to a song. Ur mind brings back all forgotten memories even after decades. 



But now ., nothing of such thing happened. Almost I was centered and was almost totally in present . Why almost?. Iam still conscious of this experience isn’t It?...
Believe me its really beautiful to lead such life. It lasted till noon. As my mind stopped my body reacted in wild way. Nausea and vomiting  followed . Not really serious as it was just fer few minutes but the magical spell was broken. I am back to my older self. Again my mind was assaulted my never ending hurricane of thoughts. Back to life of subjective-interpreting-reactive mind.



Asking for explanation from others is a foolish thing and exlaining to others thinking they would understand is another foolishthing. it doesnt work both the ways. the best is just to move forward--Sri.Sri

Even though I was silent for next 2 days , it was mere Empty silence. On surface level, not complete silence where even your sense organs become silent. Though i was verbally silent., me and my room mates often indulged wild war like gestures of tom n jerry as if we were playing dumb charades for million dollars( that was wild fun)



Remember one thing. You are responsible for your happness. Come what may, whoever says whatsoever., you protect your mind. And keep your self ha[[y. you be determined. Iam not going to let my happiness be taken away by anybody. Even if God comes and yells at me. I will tell God, thanks you , this is your goft to me. Make this determination today—Sri Sri

After 4 days eating ashram satvik bland food, I sent a message of my food travails to my mentor-brotherly-friends in banglore city. The result : meal fit for kings was organized by time I hit city. Till late night , we crusied complete banglore…enjoying life to its peak

Finally as I got into my bus back to my home I wondered as I reflected. Was these 4 days a dream? It had almost symptoms of withdrawal. Well if we cant give up good memories how can we give up bad memories .isnt it ? or am I wrong ? Events are events. It’s the colour you dye it with that makes them happy or sad. Infact because of my boisterous fun we had in class, course instructor at one point chided me in public. Did I feel bad?...na..not at all. I was sooooo happy and full of glee..nothing touched me. Yeah my friends did protest later. ((Hmmm..friends are those who meet u in hell and say…common dude..lets have fun n rock and shock and awe hell matees…what a dudes we were .. I think great things  come in limited editions. We were sooo complementary though our characteristics were completely contradictory))

I think I need to add the “Power to be present in current moment” to my spiritual goals list. Just imagine, rather than one day, if I can live everyday like this, how wonderful would it be. You are ever new. You are hyper objective. Nothing can touch you, non judgmental non interpretive mind. Even in midst of chaos, you can be perfectly calm . In hectic activity we can be  serene and silent. Wow. Endless opportunities lie ahead of us both in materialistic and spiritual life. This moment is all you own. If you don’t live in this moment then you are not living your life. This moment has potential for infinity and its in our best interests not to throw it away so cheaply

Hmmm….whatever …two great friends..deep silence…serene climate in ashram..everyone are soo polite and courteous to one another even when everyone are strangers to other.


Those could be some golden unforgettable moments to feel gratitude for.


Do you know corruption begins where the sense of belonging ends? No body is corrupt whom they feel connected to. They ask for bribe only from those who feel are not their own, isn’t it so? We need to change this. We need to create a higher sense of belongingness-Sri Sri

I wondered what happened in the world in last 4 days. In last 10 years I never missed single day newspaper. Did Chinese chinkis leave Indian Territory? Did RAW spy sarabjit survive prison attack? Honk ..honk..life is calling…time to catch on. Thus daily grinding rigmarole runs a start.



If you have imbibed wisdom , there is no way you can be miserable. Wisdom is scuh that you know where there will be unpleasant days and there will be pleasant days. There will be good people and bad people. Some times your friends behave as enemies and your enemies become your good friends. All this is a way of life, these things happen. They help you become centred and solid.then no storm can shake you ---- Sri Sri

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