The year that was:
Though era of corona has ushered all
negative fall out, for me not all was negative. There was some good, bad and
ugly. Here are few interesting takeaways. While there was global gloom &
Depression doom all over, I hardly felt anything. Be it claustrophobia or
depression due to lockdown and lack of social interactions. Well, that’s my
daily lifestyle for decades. On contrary, Lockdown gave opportunity to sleep
peacefully, read in tons,
THE
GOOD!
When corona struck , no news that came
was good news. Economies tumbled, jobs lost, lives snuffed away, migrants
crisis…all while working alone in office with most of staff doing WFH. (since I
live in same building as office, I was attending it everyday). Somewhere in
this time of boredom & monotony & era of corona, 1st half of
year spent in devouring books voraciously while second half entered the cupid.
Obsessive Bibilophile
While entire world shifted to online
platform and Netflix/Amazon Prime became way to kill time for most, I took to AmazonKindle.
I roughly must have read more than 100 books this year (Amazon Kindle says I
read 164 books. Though I doubt It or , it must have taken account of all comics
and other small books of no relevance. However I definitely read 35+ big books.
More on those books in other blog. Like Osho says " For me , Books are
love affair". I concur. Btw on flip side, spending so much time gazing at
screen also increased my eye sight.
Covid & Cupid
Many have different collections & hobbies like travelling new places or collecting things. I dont travel places. i explore people. esp interesting and unique. i always fall in love with people with passion living or striving for their dreams. i love to listen to their stories of adventure and valour. Struggle & victory etc. I always respect interesting interactions, meeting interesting people. In such pursuit, i happen to meet this person.
We hit off from very first moment of interaction. I was dazzled by her sheer
energy & exuberance. The calls went late in night. Call it initial euphoria
or her infectious electrifying engaging conversation. The cackle of her smile,
rolling of her eyes, mischievous glint in her eyes. Bible says “ No one has
seen tomorrow” , even I wonder what’s tomorrow or fate of this relationship. I
don’t know. Considering my eccentricities & her quirkiness, I really don’t
know. But nevertheless my journey on this planet definitely was enriched by her
presence & interaction. Moreover This is first time I ever meeting an
accomplished - hard working-army officer-entrepreneur and lovely lady. On flip side, hilariously
she remembers date & time of every faux pas of mine and arguement. (so
stereotypical yet cute)
THE
BAD
2020 has only one theme for entire globe
: CORONA VIRUS pandemic. No one escaped its wrath. Rich & poor nations,
democracies & dictatorial, East & West, believers & atheists,
fanatics & liberals, healthy & unhealthy…no one escaped virus
onslaught. Work from Home, Lockdown, Sanitizer, Quarantine has become part of
daily language while social distancing, masks , hand santisers became part of
our bodies for long time to come.
Corona & Conspiracies :
Is Covid virus
man made or accidental leap from animal? Did china unleash virus to dominate
world? So many conspiracies feeding internet how china is now buying all
American companies after they went bust on stockmarket, how Beijing witnessed
less virus though its near Wuhan which is birth place of virus. Did china
unleash to take over hong Kong as pro-democratic protest are on rise? Or is it
do with latest 5g tech? well, so many stories and I am total conspiracy buff.
THE
UGLY:
New place: Sudden
relocation brought in intense bitterness as this is my 4th in last 4 years.
Despite all auto positive self suggestion, bitterness just didnt want to leave.
Disappointment at fate, disagreement (should i say raging anger & loss of
trust) with leadership, anger at my own self followed by intense loneliness
& psychological divide & distance with my family within me following
the relocation ..all bundle of tumultuous emotions giving birth to new life
doctrine which i would be henceforth adapting. All positive words of
encouragement by colleagues, self image boosting words from near & dear,
tons of self talk from self-help books failed to smoothen the balm over my
bruised psyche. However i do intend to make new place best & productive to
myself. Inshallah..!!
I wonder what
2021 usher in?. To mock Gods, tell your plans. Man proposes, God
disposes.....Yet man achieves. i just want to be better person to myself.
